Sunday, September 24, 2006
jus reached hm frm chinatown ceremony..feelin bery tired..esp muy throat doesn't seem to get any betta..it's practically scorchin painful..i'm feelin down cuz things jus happened to be sho wrong for mi again..i realised that he's more initiative when wif his frens, or rather other gers he used to went out wif..muy stand here ish not to rake up the past and anyhow wonder..in the first place hu granted mi tt chance to wonder??when i asked abt past experience, he said " but i always show initiative to muy dear dear wat"(but the fact ish he didn't ALWAYS yet he claimed to be.. -_-")this ish how i felt at tt instant..if he used to be so initiative towards dem or hu watever particular..den obviously i expect him to be the same towards mi or eben betta cuz i'm his gf (hu he claims to cherish bery much..) but obviously his actions doesn't sychronize wif his words..wat he said made mi tinks tt he sorta of taken mi for granted..he treated other gers betta..den how mi? as his gf summore..to receive lesser? i couldn't bear another min to tok to him..this ish sumthg which i reali dunch get it..dis reminds mi of muy neighbour dickson..when i went out wif him, he never fails to offer to help mi carry muy bag but of which i rejected all times, cuz unless he's muy bf or no choice i nidda his help oni den wil i accept his offer..as frens i expect he/she to carry his/her own stuff unless nidda help..(i'm not tryin to be a fishmonger here, but to est a fren-fren r/s tt's all, i dunch wish to send wrong "signals")till i get a heart to heart and open frank tok wif him..i jus wanna be alone.
o0..happy together..0o
9/24/2006 12:31:00 AM
