Wednesday, October 11, 2006
jus reached hm..went to rot at library for a few hours before walkin hm..takin time to sort out muy tots at the same time..i felt confused..i felt mixed..and now i stil do wif him...after much tots..i feel that we're reali different..different types of ppl..and i stil feel that i can't fit into his world and his people (family..frens..church..etc)i used to tink given time..maybe i wun feel so weird anymore and get used to it..but sumhow..after one over years..thgs seem to be stagnant.suddenly i feel that i m bak to square one..bak to the daes where i feel his stuff are jus so overwhelmin for mi..to mi..takin pics wif frens has nv been a prob..til i met and knew him..i jus gt one qns to ask u, " hab u eber seen a pic i took wif another guy standin close enuff to each other? " den tink of how i feel whenever i see ur pics...it's not tt takin pics wif frens cannot..but tt how u take wif tt person..if ppl hu dunch reali noe wld hab mistaken ur two as a couple alr..den how abt mi? u sae oni frens..yar take wif frens nth wrong..but if take pics wif frens machiam like takin couple fotos..den sumthg mus be wrong rite? den like tt stil called "frens oni?"it's not a matter of bein of mature or wat..i'm not tt mature muyself either..but the disappointment sets in when i've shared wif u muy tots and concerns before..to tink u speak abt carin for mi and stuff..and yet ur actions does eitherwise..little thgs like dese do make a difference u noe..esp to mi..if u reali truly love and care for mi..show mi thru actions..and tt ish not to let mi go thru anymore of dis kinda of shit..let mi hab tt confidence in u..but forget it..it's too late to repeat all dese to u again..u told mi tt u didn't noe it was considered close..den tink if i were to the one in the pic wif another guy..how wld u feel? if u feel uncomfortable den obviously the shot was taken close..another thg tt brings to muy attention ish the camera angle..why take pics tt wld let ppl misunderstood? isit a good thg to be misunderstood? dis relationship has taken a toll on mi and i dunch wan to continue anymore..meaningless to stay together..i dunch feel true happiness wif him..oni constant worries tt flood muy mind..enuff.it's over.
o0..happy together..0o
10/11/2006 04:56:00 PM
