Monday, February 26, 2007
first of all..i wanna thank god for his grace..his patience wif mi..esp dis few daes..next wanna thank both muy sistas mingrang and joy for their lovely and wonderful birthdae present for mi..i gt a knitted letter J frm mingrang in frame..it jus shows her time and effort spent into dd it for mi..reali thanks dear..and i gt 2 books frm joy..both of which i tink it's a prayer answered frm god..hu neva fails to see and understand muy needs..it's a book on how to pray for others..and 1-min prayers for women..the lord neva fails to bring ppl to mi esp when i nidda help and pray together..and tt's the amazin love and grace he's for us all..ptl ~
todae's the first dae of work..but kept yawnin away at muy desk while readin the manuals in the mornin..didn't hab enuff sleep ytd nite..i'm hurt and disppointed..i'm stil tinkin abt him..muy love is stil dere despite of wat he did..but i noe he's not much feelins left for mi for us again..many of muy frens told mi to gib up and move on..but sumhow i hanged on..til last nite..i tink it's reali pointless for mi to be in his life anymore..he jus evidently shows he doesn't nidda mi anymore..so i tink i betta disappear..i dunch tink it wld eben make a diff to him..gt mi no mi..it's reali hard for mi to gib up dis time..i've tot it thru..but i've to learn to accept reality..he kips focusin on the probs we had b4..despite muy endless assurance tt thgs are diff eber since tt patch up..cuz to mi tt's wat god intended for us..but sumhow..his mind is not soft enuff to accept watever i've said to him..i reali learn to treasure ebery lil thgs and moments we spent together eber since tt patch...cuz i've learnt muy lesson and mend muy ways in which he doesn't like..but sumhow..it's nothing to him..he's one hu used to tell mi when thgs happened..it's when god wans us to learn sumthg as a couple together..he's the one hu used to tell mi tt when thgs happened..we shld always look bak at the sweet and happi times we had together..instead of dwellin in the probs and sadness..he's oso the one hu used to tell mi to never gib up tt easily in the r/s..cuz he noe hw much it wld hurt god by dd so..hu kips on blessin us so much so much..sayin goodbye to dis r/s is reali reali like takin an impt part of mi away..dis r/s is special to mi..cuz i've neva experience dis kinda of love at all..esp when god's in it as well..i've learnt mani thgs..n i dunch wanna forget so i wun repeat the mistakes again in muy life nextime..i've giben muy all..practically eberythg..tt's y i reali wanna cherish..the double portion of blessin frm god..and so much lookin forward to our honeymoon together in europe..habin our own nest..but yet it is oso in dis r/s tt hurts mi so deep so deep..tt muy heart jus aches ebery time i tink of how we are rite now..tml gotta report eben earlier le..when i learnt of wat nic and i are gg to do in tt company..i noe it's not gg to be an easy job..tinkin..we're gg to be responsible for our products gg into shanghai..no wonder we nidda noe mandarin now..i jus wanna do eberythg for god..all for his name..all i eber wan..ish to see u face to face..den i'll noe i'm found muyself in you..
o0..happy together..0o
2/26/2007 11:18:00 PM
